I mean, I really, really want another baby. So does my husband.
We've been kind of trying for a few months, but not really trying. Mostly because we were dealing with some issues, then we had the month of sickness, and we've got the kid who is transitioning from co-sleeping to crib sleeping. And there was the mystery of the missing period.
I was late. Really Late. And I am never late. Except that one time in 2008 when I got pregnant. That's how regular I am. Even when I had horrible heavy periods they always arrived on time, around the beginning of the month.
It was the beginning of January and my period hadn't been heard of since November 26. Christmas and New Year's had come and gone. Three POAS tests had come up negative. But those things can be wrong. It only takes a couple episodes of "I Didn't Know I was Pregnant" to learn that.
So, I scheduled an appointment with my OB. I got an exam and a bunch of blood tests. She said that the month of sickness in December might have thrown my cycles out of wack. But I'd been sick before and that had never happened. So, even though I knew it was unlikely given some important facts like hardly any recent lovin' because we were sick, we were tired, we have a toddler, we were watching the Daily Show.....Part of me was really hoping to be pregnant.
Really hoping.
And then I got the phone call from the nurse. "Your pregnancy test was negative and all your other blood work came back normal."
My missing period stayed missing though. Up until the 14th of January. I guess Aunt Flo took a vacation to Miami or something, got her dates mixed up. I don't know. In any case I was thrilled to know that I was not in premature menopause and when to time that conception thing.
In the meantime, I am in the midst of full blown baby longing. Getting wistful looking at pictures from when Gabriel was just born, 3 months, 9 months. Glancing at the pregnancy and birth books at Borders. Walking by the layette aisle at Target...just to see what the latest Dwell Studio design is...Pricing slings....Thinking about a second set of cloth diapers...wondering what my chances of a VBAC really are. Smiling at the moms with their tiny babies snuggled in the Mobys. I'm beyond excited that my brother/sister in law are having a baby this summer. Even if I can't get pregnant again at least I can go shopping for someone who is!
So, let the real trying begin. In earnest. God Willing.
*Yes, Henrietta.
I so love all the Dwell Studio for Target stuff!! I love the regular Dwell Studio stuff too but umm its way outside of our budget. The only advice I have for you is this: Try not to get so caught up in the goal that the process stops being fun.
ReplyDeleteoh , best of luck! My menses just returned after 18 months! We still co sleep, but are thinking of transitioning DS into some kind of seperate sleeping surface...Id love to hear how your experiences are going!
ReplyDeleteThanks for all the well wishes...
ReplyDelete@BB We are having some good nights and some bad nights with our transition out of co sleeping. Mostly...he starts out okay but kind of loses it around 3 or 4 a.m. He wants to get up and drink some milk, play, or get in bed with us. We snuggle with him in his room and hold his hand til he falls back asleep. Sometimes this works quickly, sometimes not. It is hard not to give in when he is pointing at the door saying, "Bed, bed, bed." I am trying to encourage a bond with a transitional object that he seems to like a bit: a lavender sachet pillow. Mostly though he still seems to need to stroke my/DH arm repeatedly to fall asleep. It is hard.